Break or Break?

 I need a break. Not just in a wishy washy “Ooh a day off would be nice” I need to have some time to myself, to relax, to wind down and just recharge my batteries.


In my previous job, I used to get 10 weeks off a year, fair enough I couldn’t choose when to take them, but I still got a break from work. I started this job in January 2008 and since that time I have only had 3 full weeks off, and none of those were for holiday – I was either ill, or having some personal trauma.


It’s now September 2010, and the longest amount of time I’ve had away from work just to chill has been 3 days…. Not enough, and when you consider what the last 2½ years have consisted of, nowhere near enough!


They say there is a hierarchy of stressful events, I think I’ve been through most of them recently, except for death and moving!


 Coming to terms with the fact that my marriage was over, the aftermath of that and the resulting divorce, including the knowledge that I was breaking someone’s heart in the process.


 The realisation that I was falling in love with my friend’s husband, and that he was falling in love with me (not as clear cut as the statement suggests, but still not the most romantic way to meet).


 The massive and continuing fallout of the breakdown of his marriage.


 The struggle to gain access to his children.


 Dan being out of work for 18 months.


 The resulting debt problems from supporting both of us through that time.


So, it hasn’t been a bed of roses. It’s not doom and gloom, our relationship has taken a number of serious batterings in its short life, but we are still together, and still happy, but dealing with everything just gets too much sometimes!!


Although I only get 5 precious weeks of holiday a year, I am taking a week in October. It will be a week for me. I will be doing what I want, when I want for the entire week. I will be relaxing and just enjoying some me time, and hopefully recharging my batteries for what the rest of the year is going to bring us.


I’m hoping that just taking some time out will be enough and that I’ll come back calmer, stronger and de-frazzled, after all, that’s what holidays are for!

Simple Joys

I seem to have a very childlike view of rainbows. The sight of one just makes me break out into a huge grin. Even if I am getting soaking wet in a shower, if I look up and see one I forget the rain, stop, look and smile.


Every time I see one, if I have a camera on me, I'll try and take a picture, funny how they can all look so different. The picture above was taken as I was leaving work, as you can see, the sky is clear, but there it was - beautiful.


The one below was taken in Great Yarmouth, it was amazing. A full, double rainbow. You can just about make out the second one above the first. Such a rarity to see, and although I couldn't get the whole of it into the photo, I still like the picture. For me, silly as I am, it was a "Wow" moment that I wanted to record.


Strange how such moments of the simple beauty of nature can make you stop everything and appreciate the wonders of the everyday world.

Weighty Wednesdays!

If you ever read my LiveJournal blog, (ClicketyLinkety) you'll know I started a new diet on the 2nd of August. Today was my 6th weigh in and I've now lost a grand total of 15 1/2lbs in that time.
I've added my ticker to this blog as well, so it will be a constant source of motivation seeing it getting closer and closer to my target as I stay on plan.


As you can see from the ticker, I have a lot to lose, but (once again, lol) I am determined to do it this time. I'm well on my way there, and Dan is great support, when he isn't plying me with alkyhol that is ;)


Wednesdays are anticipated for another reason, it's the day that Dan gets to chat to his boys on the phone. Just being able to hear him speak to them, and hear how excited they are to talk to their Dad is something special, and I know it gives him a huge boost, but it leaves me happy as well, even hearing them is better than nothing.


On top of all that......it's HumpDay as well! What's not to like? :)

Dogs....Man's Best Friend???!!?

Don't they look adorable? Oh the joys of dog ownership, fancy sharing your life with two beautiful doggies like that.......Hmmm not so much today. Today I am at the end of my tether with the pair of them. 


Between them they have pretty much destroyed the downstairs of the house, and for some reason have decided to forget that they are house trained, we cannot leave the house without one or the other of them messing somewhere. We have tried everything to get them to behave, to remember their housetraining but no luck.


So we have come to a decision, we shall be crate training them. If they can't be trusted to be out, they will be crated when we are at work. Dogs tend not to see crates as we do, they seem them as security, but I can see we are going to have our work cut out with training a 5 year old Basset and a 13 year old Doberman to love a crate.


It will work, I will make sure it works, I'll make sure they are happy and secure in their new cratey homes and I AM going to claim back the living room for human habitation - and who knows, maybe, just maybe I'll be able to have a new sofa without fears of it getting destroyed (by dogs anyway!)

Wonderful weekend

I had a lovely weekend, it's always nice to get out and about, and this weekend was the Maritime Festival in Yarmouth. So we had a nice afternoon in the sun. We then came home and got utterly sozzled, this wasn't planned, but we were up til daylight appeared and then some! :)

I'll grow up one day I guess....just not quite yet! Yesterday was spent recovering for obvious reasons, and now I'm back at work, back to the daily grind - and without a lottery win again this Saturday, it looks like I'm here for the whole week!

In other news, Dan had an interview today for a permanent job at his current placement. I hope more than anything he gets it - he loves it there, and I think it would be wonderful if he didn't have to worry about leaving in October.

Everything was crossed for you Babe! x

*Gets Comfy*

I have moved, LiveJournal is annoying me, with it's pay for this, pay for that attitude, I don't even know if anyone is reading my inane witterings, so I find myself in pastures new. I shall keep my old LiveJournal blog up, so if you should wish to get up to date, get yourself to LiveJournal Blogness where you can get up to speed!


Here's to a new home :)